On Competition

I notice that I don't have fun doing activities alone.

I got into bouldering with a few friends, going twice a week. But when they couldn't come, I ended up stopping.

I got good grades in university because I'd study with friends and we'd compete to see who could memorise the most.

I maintained a 150+ day meditation streak in Headspace, but I'd always send my streak to my friends and would ALWAYS accept any competition they would set.

I'm someone who's competitive by nature. I need others to push me so that I can also push myself, but what I lack is that I'm not competitive with myself.

I wish I could get better at this, but I'm not too sure how.